3rd Jan 2010

This feeling numbs me.. It begins recently,and I couldn’t know why..
2010,a new year begins,and I reflected back the ups and downs in the past 2009..
To me,it was a sharp bend of my course of life.. Like facial nerve, how it bend sharply, forming geniculate ganglion, it marked how my life changed..

In university life,I learn, I felland I rise again.. I observed, I got disappointed and got tougher..
I had no idea, when I start missing my young age so much(well, I stil consider myself young now)
Memories flashes...Istart to understand why mum always said“school life is the best part of your life”

Life is full of trials. We always hear people saying this. No life comes easy. We see the glory part of a person, we never witness the tears when they had to shed alone. Quoted from a person’s blog,
没 有 人 能 够 随 随 便 便 成 功(there is no success without hurdles)。I define success in this way, “ to have an aim, to work for it, and leave it to God to decide”

Reading friends’ blog entries is a warm thing to do. It makes me feel at home..It makes me feel Im part of Malacca, somewhere in the street of the small city. Homey homey me, I have a vivid definition for the word “ HOME”… It’s a port, and it’s a rest stage..It’s where I gain confidence,where I rest mentally... It’s a place where I can be myself.. It’s a place without any alertness to harms... It makes me realize, who I used to be... And the mistakes that I used to have..
Far away from HOME, the freedom give me the awareness of parental love...

Big boy now.. big big boy..

2010,the late coming wishes from me too all my friends and family..Wishing you a happy new year..a new decade.. today is 3rd of Jan 2010,it’s not too late yet..start with 3,my lucky number...good one..

New year resolution? I have no great ones.. Just a simple wish.I wish to have no regrets in the year ahead..

Friends and buddies,take care...dont look back.. don’t trouble urself with wats laying ahead..start picking up your steps, we will get there somehow…

lots of regards,
Edwin Jing shin
e.spot..

every minute u wasted today,will be reflected on ur lack of confidence tomorrow...

By "Dr. Sateesha Mayak,Associate professor,obstretics and gynaecologist."

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i cant restrain my enthusiasm to blog despite of heavy work loads..
it was an enlighting evening,when i went to church for mass...til then,only did i realise,christmas is just around the corner,which i didnt even realise it as india seems to not taking it as a major celebration..no decorations are seen..no christmas tree..no blinking neon light bulb..well, u can actually forget about mr santa.

"Hark now hear the angels sing".this was the first christmas song which i heard here.it made me feel warm..The lyrics are the same,the melody is the same..OF COURSE..but,u cant never noe the feeling i got when i heard the koir singing it..

At times of celebration,it makes us home-sick..start missing home..start missing friends..start missing family..

we,my family,used to go to christmas eve's mass together..start missing them,and i cant deny that,i miss bullying my little brother...^^...thats me..

this is the tough part that i hv to go thru..by myself..with my own effort,i will..
For the reason that you have raised me up..that u have cried for me in the dark..that you have always believing me that i wont let u down again...

you two are the reasons that i clench my teeth and go on..
i think i have always loved you too..i and him wil make u proud..and ur smile worth everything...

Dont cry over the missed opportunity,it will hide a better one from you.

Dont cry over the missed opportunity,it will hide a better one from you.

have a break,have a kit kat??

i need a rest...my mind was telling me that he needs some rest..the exhaustion is extreme..The extreme of fear,extreme of nervous..extreme of helplessness...

went to the library.on the way back,walking under the moon,it seemed so tranquilating..so peaceful..so nice to stay away from works even for a moment..

Uni's life was tough,and it is getting tougher as expected..predictable...start missing school life..and wonder if i wil have the chance again..back to high school,mamak-ing was the wonderful thing that i can think of..crazy crapping..it's fun!

get rid of work loads for a moment...i enjoy the time i have for myself..Perhaps,i just need a break...a break to pamper myself..to love myself..
well,i cant be too mean to myself..

The best is yet to come..yes,it will...dont lose hope,dont lose faith..after a break,u are new..and new chance comes....

少 了 一 些 东 东

自 从 我 踏 入 医 学 系 这 门 系， 我 就 非 常 清 楚， 我 在 生 命 里 有 了 重 大 的 转 折 点。 一 个 改 变 生 活 方 式 的 转 折 点。 只 是， 老 实 说， 现 实 并 不 在 我 想 象 的 范 围 内。 差 别， 感 觉 太 大 太 大 了。。。

少 了， 在 无 名 小 径 散 步 的 闲 情。 少 了， 两 袖 清 风 听 着 喜 爱 音 乐 的 乐 子。 少 了， 陪 家 人 看 电 视 的 优 闲。 有 时， 为 了 多 睡 一 会 补 回 精 神， 连 早 餐 也 少 了。。。

医 生， 我 用 十 个 字 形 容。“ 好 听 不 好 读， 好 听 不 好 做。” 这 也 是 学 长 告 诉 我 的。 记 得， 第 一 天 来 到 医 学 院， 听 学 长 致 词， 说 了 一 句 话，“we are crazy enough to become a doctor." 这 句 话， 深 深 烙 印 在 我 脑 海。

这 职 业， 何 止 是 个 职 业 那 么 简 单。 只 有 持 着 正 确 心 态， 方 才 坚 持 下 去。。
记 得， 当 时 选 修 医 学 的 烈 火 雄 心， 艰 难， 辛 苦 也 都 必 需 一 一 克 服。

为 了， 那 一 群， 带 着 希 望， 将 一 切 指 托 给 你 的 人。。。
医 生 的 听 筒， 千 斤 重。 医 生 的 白 袍， 不 只 是 个 象 征 而 已。。
为 各 个 医 学 生 加 油， 祈 祷。。。